as i grew older, i came to understand myself better. then learnt to hide this understanding so deep, i can't comprehend my actions.

spent about 4 days just hanging around.. 're-charging my spirit'. and i'm brought back to the same place with the same conclusion: I need to work towards my dreams, if i don't know what it is. Then I need to at least take a step forward to look for it

Time to get back in position and get my hands dirty. Focus now and finish the overdue work, essays, planning, publicity and all the other things that i've started.

And I can't forget those regret, those lessons I've learnt, and the years I've went through.

i love study groups and had alot of fun today... with wy & fan.
I wonder how much fun i missed out in sec and college not having one.

and I shudder at the thought of ALL the piled work and assignments.
Time should STOP and SLEEP when I do.
But it doesn't.

Been seriously slacking, when i really shouldn't.
Thinking about a million things at one time. and my body just freezes on my bed.

Have it ever happened to you, that you think that you're typing that god-forsaken proposal and have completed it.
Then wake up before the deadline, and realize that you haven't done a thing...

Or sit in front of the screen and play any show possible. Staring blankly, and not know why or what you're watching, just to ignore the screaming voices of work in your mind.

I see $15 725 in my head, every time I pause or turn around.
Honestly, I'm searching for the pig head. Pretty sure its hung somewhere around here.

约了以往的朋友， 发现原来我们都一样没有变地在人生摩天轮上绕着。 她也还是
乐观地寻找爱情的依靠，一个一个。 我也一样，从之前的雾里看花到今天的
风中望沙。 同一个轨道上，努力说服自己曾在这过程中成长。

问我不会累吗？ 同一天内被两个人说我太好强，应该学着软弱。 其实我也很想
的。 可是， 发现没有工作的我，没有重心，性格，也没有话说了。

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Hope

Hope is such an interesting thing. It lights a flame within the soul,
simultaneously striking the heart with so much fear. It paralyzes you.
And I now, I shall learn to live with this hope...

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I realised that the old scars of the past still stings when uncovered.
Can't differentiate if that numbed pain is from the unrecovered wound
or just the disgust of facing the damage so trufully...

It's been a very bad night... And I'm still trying to pull through....

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