Keep Trying...

I keep trying to find a way to string my thoughts into words. But of I kept failing, my voice of reason and communication (though, since when did I have that?) has escaped and seem to not want to come back.

Read the past entries in VARIOUS previous blogs to get back the same feeling of writing once more. But nothing. NOTHING indeed. But like the giving birth process which is always unpleasant and sometimes (only) unproductive.

I'm going to force it. With bad grammar, vocab, maths and little recolllection of chemistry, lit and accounting.

Not that I've been working hard (well not that i've been working). Woke up to 14.04 today, and well till now. Kept going through shows, previews and all that crappy funny stuff on youtube.

Laughing is good for the soul, but just bad for the schedule. So I need to get to the "See Img 1" (Self explanatory) and on my to-do list.
[On my desktop stickies]
To dos:
- Accounting Homework:
- Record ideas about the PVA project.
- Write exhibition brief
- think about thesis topic/subject

And I need to eat, more than a meal a day. So i'm having dinner with van and wym. and I missed (as in did not do) swimming and mediation and walking tong.

And I don't have a clue why i'm typing this out. It's interesting though, knowing that my brain is simply processing the facts, not mixing them with the clouds of acidic fumes of emotions under the beaker.

Death to the slacker, the TV obessed, the bedroom singer, the self-deceived. And rebirth to the slave-driven, the tireless worker and to the invisble hand that smacks me the next time - i reach for my mouse and clicks on youtube, baidu or even type the forbidden words XXXX. ^^

till next time, jeanie