After examination to do list:
Seriously:
1. Study for SAT AGAIN!
2. Continue with Project and find sponsor and venue AGAIN.
3. Confirm colleges to apply for and start writing entrance essays.
4. Do the god-damn cyber museum project.
But SERIOUSLY.. heck that... I'm GOING to
1. Sleep for 48 hours and don't even consider waking up when kissed
2. Get slooshed at Clarke Quay and howl like a pro twilight extra
3. Go for a shopping marathon and forget that i'm on a savings plan
4. Go for a movie marathon after the shopping one.
5. Sit down in some teahouse and people watch for an afternoon.
6. Write down things to do 101 with my dearies after THEIR exams are over.
7. Do things 101 that i wrote in no.6.
8. Read the million books i ordered the day before and super soak in their melodrama-ness
9. Read some chim philospher's poem and dallying in words.
10. Bring tong tong out for a walk. And just enjoy the air OUTSIDE of this room.
If only tomorrow 4.30 pm will come right now.
But then again, why am i not studying (have not done much of it) for the 2.30pm paper tmr. LAST ten hours.
I hear the clock ticking ... ... ...
November 20, 2009
November 17, 2009
November 10, 2009
satisfaction
I struggled to finish, but in entirely about 12 hours work..
i completed the design section of my this year's coursework. Faster then any other component of my course, and i'm far more satisfied.
This is definitely, one of those day when you start wondering if i should have went to design school, when they waved fervently at me?
My proud accomplishment -
But then again its not exactly professional. Well enjoyment, talent and accomplishment rarely equates. To completing the truly important of my workload - the essays..
i completed the design section of my this year's coursework. Faster then any other component of my course, and i'm far more satisfied.
This is definitely, one of those day when you start wondering if i should have went to design school, when they waved fervently at me?
My proud accomplishment -
But then again its not exactly professional. Well enjoyment, talent and accomplishment rarely equates. To completing the truly important of my workload - the essays..
November 8, 2009
left behind by time
Suddenly, i looked at my ical on the desktop screen and realized that it is nov 7. Somehow, without much of my noticing it, time flew by. And now, i'm 1 year older, but i guess not necessarily wiser.
The many turn of events, and many of my inherent characteristics that surfaced in response brought me back to a crossroad and new realization. It seems that because of what happened in phuket and the new thoughts infused into my life, i became increasingly trusting and dependent on others.
The strength that i have gathered at the start of the semester, have worn off.
In the end, revealing the face once so familiar. The same one that hides from the world, and covers her eyes under the pillow, convinced that she could live with practically nothing - no pride, no praise, no pragmatic work. In short, the need to take shortcuts, easy paths and be a coward.
My assignments remain undone, emails read but shafted into the recesses of my head.
And I realized that i always thought that ultimately, i'm the only one who has the power to destroy myself. The battle goes on, responsibility versus my true nature.
I wish i'll make the right choices this time. And not worry about the decisions I made, or even question if i want that future. Because, as of now i have no future to worry about.
The many turn of events, and many of my inherent characteristics that surfaced in response brought me back to a crossroad and new realization. It seems that because of what happened in phuket and the new thoughts infused into my life, i became increasingly trusting and dependent on others.
The strength that i have gathered at the start of the semester, have worn off.
In the end, revealing the face once so familiar. The same one that hides from the world, and covers her eyes under the pillow, convinced that she could live with practically nothing - no pride, no praise, no pragmatic work. In short, the need to take shortcuts, easy paths and be a coward.
My assignments remain undone, emails read but shafted into the recesses of my head.
And I realized that i always thought that ultimately, i'm the only one who has the power to destroy myself. The battle goes on, responsibility versus my true nature.
I wish i'll make the right choices this time. And not worry about the decisions I made, or even question if i want that future. Because, as of now i have no future to worry about.
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