Goodybye 2010. Hello 2011.

It's been a slow holidays. I've been at times, lost, disgruntled, and perplexed. And almost all these times. SICK. It begun with one fateful night of puking by the toilet bowl. But that's not going to be the point of my first post in 2011. And on a side note, ( though I was sick all the past 12 odd days and haven't done much out of my house on this sunny island) every time I look at Tong or hold his little paw, I'm just glad I came back.

And it is with this love in my heart that somehow I think I might be grown-up enough for more love in my life.

But first to keep my three year running ritual, I'm going to review my past year resolutions and the year itself:

I wanted COURAGE, which I gathered and started a new life in a not-so foreign country with.

I wanted LOVE, while distance (from family drama) made me love my family (ALOT) more. I still couldn't help but gather my heels and run whenever any emotion borders that big L word.

I wanted TRUTH. But somehow I always felt better living with lies and believing in my own deception. So yes, other than the stuff you read from this blog (which is probably encrypted anyways) don't believe what I say.

I wanted PURPOSE. Then I realize my purpose didn't matter as long as I had a LIFE, which is a work-in-progress resolution.

Summing up 2010.

• I packed my things and went away to HK for my 3 year BA degree. I think I am going to major in Philosophy. But with me.. one can never tell..
• I graduated from LASALLE ( a.k.a HELL at some point, I doubted if I would make it out of there alive) with less than stunning grades. (Because I tended to miss exams and not submit my essays)
  
• I did a 8-day exhibition at Orchard Central. Kudos to me, I pretty much single-handedly did it. But truth be told, it had the worst possible aesthetics, loads of room for improvements and was a financial flop. Yes, that's my art mangerial debut that told me clearly to run far far away from this industry.
• I went to Taiwan with wenying and fanny. Our maiden friends-only trip together. We had fun. But it was really the quarrels that stuck in my head. Not entirely in a bad way, those were some words that had to come out from your best friends' heart that truly made the difference. I truly am WILFUL. I'm probably going to stay this way, but while it is not life-threatening. But I listened. And will try to change without losing jeanie along the way.
• I OD-ed on pills one fateful night. Bad habits die hard. This time, I went to the hospital, hand-cuffed.

Less major happennings:

• I picked up karate. While my violent tendercies really enjoyed the outlet, I clearly don't have the determination. And here's my official resignation to my eternal white belt. (FOR NOW)
• I learnt french for one semester. And when I (attempt) to speak french, you'll probably only hear mixed-up prepositions. But I'm trying.
• My 2 term papers are both approx 2-3 days late. To my greatest despair.
• I realize that I miss Tong the most when I'm away in HK.
• I bought way too many bags and clothes and honestly have budgetary issues I'm afraid to admit.
• I now have friends from many places in asia. and a pretty close korean roommate (though we do have our issues)
• I got extremely drunk this once in LFK and was a mess kissing strangers, before I was rescued by my korean roommate. And partyed quite a bit in my first term, then toned down to beer by the harbour in cool autumn air.
• I did two fortune readings (one in TW, the other in HK) and both said I had love come knocking in April/ May. Which was true. But the guy was truly worthless and I had bad taste. And in a sense, I'm glad I ran.
• Fortune says. The 2nd month this year. Love comes around again. I'm looking forward to it, but very wary and entirely helpless I admit.

And I almost forgot I turned 21 and had early celebrations with my lovelies at sentosa. And all of us went home with a burning souvenir. The actual day was a lonely one, but daddy and mummy did go to HK, days before, to shower me in extrangant meals and gifts.

That's it for 2010. I grew up alot in this year. My 2011 resolutions are still in-progress, but I have some ideas. Happy New Year!! Have a great 2011!

Love, J