I'm back in my own room now.
I just bought the Twilight OST on itunes.
In just a while ago, finished the second book of the Twilight saga: The New Moon.

I conclude that i must have in some part of my bodily make up, an obsessive compulsion gene.

So as this entry progresses, my ears will be listening to the hopefully beautiful tunes of my newly added possession of my digital library.

Yesterday - monday, I should put it, was a solitary day. Something I'll have to admit is more than welcoming after the many days i spent in company. I do not detest company, nor am I in Bella's words: one who enjoy suffering in silence sort. But the crowding of company does get to me in unsettling my control and grounding.

Breakfast was a bountiful of dreams as usual, though they are seemingly too flitting to commit to memory. Lunch was thai, pretty authentic enough to justify the troubles it gave my stomach for that particular meal.

Clearly last weeks's sociability was taking the toil on me as I was too eager to be left alone with my ipod and newly downloaded music. Conveniently I forgot to visit the bank at Funan, which was the sole purpose of my lunch with Jasmine in the first place.

The opportunity cost( if I am even using that word right) of that blunder was a 1 hour wait in line at the clearly crowding bank at Takashimaya instead. But alone without anyone to speak to, I enjoyed my music and the only e-book I had on my ipod - Iliad, which was too heavy reading for today's liking.

Then closely followed by my 20 mins wait in queue to pay for my 2 books of the Twilight saga: New moon(2nd) and Breaking dawn(3rd). But if you knew me as you should by now,you'll know that the missing 3rd book was by choice. If they didn't run out of stock of The Eclipse(3rd), -- which baffles me how a big running bookstore like them will allow such an atrocity to occur, I will probably be instead reading that book in bed, as opposed to blogging now. This act against my best desire, is probably why this entry is drrraaagging.. (though I really wouldn't want subconsciously- or not to associate blogging as an obligation, where's the fun in that?)..

I then didn't really go to the Sony Ericsson service center, if you need to know the truth, I so insistent on telling. I went there physically if you ask me, just not to complete the purpose of my visit there, anyway.

I did however, visit the object of my desire and cause of my part-agony: the 50% off DKNY bag I covet. But apart from the extremely expensive cost EVEN AFTER the discount; my experience with the Sarah Jessica Parker Perfume, also so fatefully named COVET, taught me a little that all that's coveted may not necessary be good for me.
So I'm putting it under my pillow for now to sleep on the decision. I'm sure abstinence and a little rational thought is good for the new year to come. (Like I'm trying like all the nights before to attribute the sudden movement to open and close my door to the forces of the wind, so it won't freak me out to carry everything to Jasmine's room for another night of bunking in.)
And I also did visit the Esprit store to Jasmine's favor, found her a suitable, hopefully she really did like bag for school in 5 Jan. (Repaying my debt in money terms to her, almost to full)

There isn't much activity after that, only me, My the new moon book, the bed and some pretty intense reading. I'm actively trying to remember that the twilight is actually young adult fiction. Reminding myself that it's demeaning to think that I how much I enjoy the books. Though to the true purpose of this blog, I will admit that the contents awaken long slumbering yearning and some spots of weakness I thought better of myself, than to have.

I did to my credit, brought my baby tong out for an hour long of walk and run. Something definitely good for both him and me.

Sidetracking, it weird to have opera from the soundtrack playing from my speakers.

But it's oddly not unpleasing. In any case, this year have been more, eons more than odd already. Since for once I look forward to the new year. I think actually CAN'T WAIT would be a better expression. And I can't wait for the school term to start on the 5th, and I think the fact that gossip girl is returning on that wonderful day is only a minute fraction of the reason.

Hopefully this excitement and positivity brings new beginnings, real ones that will free me once and for all. I imagine next year will be the real fight for my identity and reality.
Meanwhile I find this two last weeks to the next BIG step of the new year, painfully slow. Almost like sitting through the rolling credits of a movie, while its flashing black and white, you're waiting and somehow questioning the reason you're on the chair instead of doing something else.

But while I wait, there much to be done, first up Christmas dinner grocery shopping tomorrow, finding a copy of Ellipse to buy, returning my library loans, cleaning my room, getting to pay for my next sem's fees, searching that french class schedule, blah blah... To get everything in perfect order to prepare for war with my inner demons, and also to debate over my too many resolutions and to stop procrastination to finish with the Living the Truth book.

Alright then, I nagging.. toasts and cheers to the Twilight series, which at this moment is my ultimate obsession. And till I figure what to do with that and my new found emotions...
/Sometimes soon, jeanie