Narrative writing has always been my poorest writing in English class. I dunno which part of me is malfunctioning, but my brain simply have problems chronological documentation.

I subject that to my being TOO random.. Entirely too random. and maybe a strap overly emotional.

In any case, as Jasmine so kindly reminded me: I have not blogged in nearly a week. I believe my overactive sub-conscious have formed some kind of bad mental association to this cathartic process - which is definitely the reason why I have been procrastinating blogging like I refused to write my thesis on Chirico last semester. And quite powerfully you know, my life in the absence of documentation of thoughts and actions melted again into another veil of blur...

There. You have it. I'm writing another synopsis of my life, instead of a narrative journal.
I will keep trying you see, to give you a proper journal of my reality in life - to the best of my abilities.

The past days from eve of Christmas eve to well post boxing day have been so eventful. I am so certain it will drone on for pages. Thus, my regret for not keeping it here for your perusal and for your leisure reading. I'm trying to do a content page, just purely for keepsake purposes.

23th Dec: into twilight: 3rd book - Eclipse. Imagine me, reading and reading into dawn. Cursing at Bella's indiscretion with only TongTong not listening.

24th Dec: Xmas Eve, Great dinner. IC spotchecks for wine drinking. (Though I really can't imagine why anyone would think I'm 15, even I don't look that young). And 3 or issit 4 Sapphire Tonic on the rocks, post dinner at clarke quay... Talks and murmurs, I really shouldn't enjoy drinking this much. But, I really do - on a weird level. It's dangerous though, the mood I get into after drinks. You know, I could really get myself into a deep deep pool of s*** if I completely let myself go that night... (Though I should be almost drunk)Post-drinks: More reading twilight: 4th Book: Breaking into Dawn.

25th Christmas DeC: A complete blur. Too many people kills my frequency I think. No reception except for more reading at 2am: Still Breaking into Dawn. And I think, very irrationally, finishing the series, killed some part of me. Almost like ending a relationship. I form strange emotional attachment to non-living things. MAke that non-human things. Yet, I have the worst problems forming any form of emotional attachment to human. ("sigh")

26th Dec: TVB Drama marathon. Not a great drama though, or maybe I'm already overly tuned to the English side. MY GOD!! that can't be good news!!

27th Dec: More Drama on the DVD player...

28Th Dec: as before.... maybe by this time, we're on the 2nd drama serial. I don't know for sure -.-"

29th DEc: Finally, a "the end" on portable dramas on dvds. You cannot imagine my relief to return to my itunes playlist. Only to be interrupted at ungodly 12pm to wake up. Warning to all, please don't do that again, I might kick or punch the offender for god sake!!! Movie Marathon - technically yesterday.
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Oh... damn it.. I'm really turning this to a report. The magic's lost. I hate to think that I'm just emptying my brain of words while punching my addictively-nice keyboard. ]It only means I've got to stop. Alot to sleep on tonight.

1. When-ever I'm going to get to cleaning my room?
2. Finalizing my resolutions: maybe I shall have a Yes-day?
3. Yes or No to life. That seemingly ridiculous count-down party on YiXian's place?
4. My finance budgeting for 2009, I splurged too much on soap of the late, clearly....
5. my mobile phone????
6. College tuition fee.ee.e

AHHHHHHH.... most of which most be decided upon in 1 day. Oh dear! It seems I must really be careful of what I wish for the new year seemed to crept up on me suddenly. Still, I want school to start. EVEN with the dreadful 5 day timetable.

AND no more putting off the living the truth book. I shall finish it before I get back to college. Some things I need to put behind, no matter how painful. Some things I need to see through.. like my meeting with M and Y tomorrow... You'll read about that, soon. It's a promise(though I better watch my promises to keep them) I'll be reading till then....
Sometime soon, jeanie