What did I miss in yours?
foreword: Why do I blog? This question appeared as a thought bubble in my shampoo-ing head in the bath cubicle just 15 mins ago. (Ok, too much info and introduction). Like the many thoughts and happenings that occurred over the past few days, the original intent of this activity have faded away in the crowded mess. Perhaps for writing practice, to update all of you back home? But more importantly, because strings of words dance around in my head. Screaming at me for an outlet. And because, the words have reappeared. I'm writing this post.
But this post of memorable points is not going to be done chronologically, since memories don't appear that way (at least I think so). Instead, the order of which they come up, while they might be subjected to many other conditions, should tell you more about what I think of them. (Actually, its because I believe that I'll be doing enough points organization and REFUSE to do the same for my blog)
1. Why I have typed like over 200 words of "words" and have not told you anything of consequence? Because, I'm delaying my impending research on "abortion" which is the topic I'll probably have to write on for my ACADEMIC ENG FOR ARTS STUDENT class. And the revision of french numbers (1 - 20) AND to GO THROUGH MY CANTO CLASS 2 - BECAUSE I MISSED IT. (more elaboration later)
2.I've been drinking. QUITE A BIT. exactly how often? On Wed (just 2 bottles of Heineken - note: I can't tell the taste difference between beers, but just have a preference for this brand since that SUCCESSFUL MARKETING ad by Jennifer Aniston) and like on Fri night - like just half a bottle of the 380 ml Gordon Gin with some 27% Korean Soju, 0% Margarita Mix and 1 can of Heineken. Why? (See Below)
3. To further elaborate on pt. 1&2. I need to update you on this girl. and probably on my roomie, and others I've met. Here Goes.
CT, Age: 20 going 21. Nationality: Singaporean - Exchange Student from Monash U. Met during hall fire drill. Further acquainted at Intl Hall Orientation (85% were ah tiongs) and lunch on mon.
My biggest mistake in this meeting? Telling her so much about my life and the people I know in HK. Telling her untruths about my life and about how I actually feel about her. Visiting her room that fateful Wednesday afternoon. Having her take away my control over my life as she enters my room, or pushes her way into my appointments with others. (... You know what I'll stop here. Because everything seems like a mistake. You get my point) ----
Because I HAVE to add this: She KEEPs saying these "I'm a crybaby", "You know, Jason (her Boyfriend), "I need more guy friends".
We spent like mon lunch, wed 3-10pm, fri dinner, sat 4 -10pm, sun 3 - 5pm. and she now wants tomorrow lunch together. I said ok. Because I didn't want to add to the list of lies. Though the biggest one is that I said like her (if we met in Sg, I wouldn't give her a minute of my day. She reminds me of Esther Chew - self explanatory).
KR, Age: 19. Nationality: Korean. Well, she's my roomie :)
We're in a "it's complicated relationship" on fb. But I'm not sure if she understands that I meant it as a joke. (So yes, I'm abit worried that she might get the wrong idea about my sexual orientation)
She writes welcome signs and paste them on the door - "Welcome Jeanie. Before you enter, (1) Throw away emo Jeanie. (2) return to a state of lovely jeanie. ..." and then has a notice board on the table that tells me to "shut up". So I'm wondering if I've grown so comfortable with her I forgot to keep my boundaries. Why?
Because I came back so entirely emo on wed. We talked for like hours till 3.30 am. And she had 9.30 class the following day. So we were both dead fish in class the next day. She told me about her life, and her mine. A 99% true account of about 80% of my life. I'm like a very guarded person. But we get along, and I weirdly trust her.
Because I came back on fri on the verge of falling into the abysses of depression (caused by CT's presence, I said. But later, I came to realize that it was me all along. Though I could really do without CT adding oil to the flames.) And I wanted to brave the X number of lightnings in the thunderstorm to go get my alcohol. And with a resigned face, she puts on her jacket and shoes and went with me. And also went along with my crazy plan to visit her friend's room for a drinking sleepover. (her friend lived in a hall about 10 mins by bus, where people could stay over for free. Because security was slack). And we talked the night. KR, for some strange reason gave me the feeling that she knew the cause of my unhappiness that I couldn't voice out entirely, even with that much alcohol in my system.
RL. Age: ??. Nationality: Ah Tiong. Met because of one of my fav people on earth, Wy. Had 1 FB inbox convo, 1 phone conversation to arrange for the meetup and 1 dinner together with CT. Impression: A nice guy - who offered to help me with my canto. Dislikes his area of Civil Engineering and ,like almost everyone else, hopes to get into the FINANCE sector. Emits an aura of 怨氣 about the responsibility of being of a guy and tends toward negativity regarding his future.
MC. Age: ??. Nationality: HKie. Met through Nico Senior (aka NS), in same Marketing Class. Had 1 brief sms/fb convo, 1 lunch, 1 dinner and sightseeing around Central with NS, CT. In Arts, Jap Studies. Impression: Weird. Have an obsession with gyming, body building and have weird sense of EQ. (Because asking someone & without a reply, SHOWING off your biceps during lunch on the 2nd encounter is beyond weird and very disturbing). That was a very 無語問蒼天 moment. Also very strong 怨氣 about his future, his attractiveness to girls (Because his prev relationship ended with his gf cheating on him while he spent his deferred year in Japan.) Though I really suspect that his height (or lack of) might be a contributing factor too.
NS. Age 20 going 21. Nationality: Hkie. ... (to be continued because its late... but more actually because I'm chatting with Shuang Ying)
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