RE-resolutions 2010

It like the things that I ought to do.. But ultimately remain undone. I've been meaning to edit my new year resolutions.

There was something missing from the five previous ones.
I want courage to accept change and move on.

I want love, so that I'll won't be alone or selfish. But wanting love for companionship seems like the ultimate selfish act. And from some point, I actually like being selfish. Well.. This one remains conflicting..

The missing resolution is TRUTH. I used to think there are two truths, one that you know in your heart, the other - the one you portray to others. But over the past years, the boundaries of the two have blurred to an inseparable extent that I believe the lies I tell and became deluded about the falsities of my life. So this year, I'm going to not tell lies.. until I discover the meaning of being true to myself, i'm going to stick with being truthful to myself for now.

And the last two, more accurately should be PURPOSE and LIFE.
I'm interested in my purpose, so I'll dabble around to search for it.
As for life, I think I want to continue living. (Note: this is a choice, not a granted situation) So I won't destroy it any further. and I'll not waste it by missing lessons.