All set in stone.

Thoughts if not set into actions will not change the future or anything at all. So every time change your mind, it's still pretty okay IF it stays just exactly where it is: IN YOUR MIND.

But every action on the other hand would set into motion a BILLION other continuous happenings which ultimately in collectively terming would be what we named to be OUR FUTURE. (think butterfly effect)

But it's really hard to keep the thoughts just IN OUR HEADS, so there comes what would be the self-fulfilling prophecy (I'm now-where near a Psycho. student, so DON'T take this as an academic definition k!)

All these just to justify my new year resolutions for the next year, 2009. This year, I'm avoiding horoscope predictions, Almanac or any form of divination of my year's fortune. Instead of praying for hope, luck, and great happenings, I'll rather not risk changing my mind into a messed-up fate book.

Setting in stone will be MY OWN hopes and resolutions - RESOLUTE SOLUTIONS. I'm starting this time with optimism(though I still have a twenny-weeny part that wishes me less optimistic) and most of all for the first time in since I turn a teen, feeling my actual age. I'm going to have a 19th year old (not too soon 20) 2009. (I suppose last year's resolution suceeded in removing the 10 year older mentality)

I'm not going to intentionally thrive to make mistakes, but to let my youth work that part out. To take chances and give myself chances. More so after my scary attempt at Freakish makeup for the countdown party last night, OMG! I and WY, Syl, Fanny was over make-uped, but I didn't mentally beat myself up (Which is totally un-me) at all (Well maybe for 3 mins). I was also awkward and out of conversation at ALOT of times, but yet I managed to enjoy it without OVERTHINKING and OVER ANALYZING every thing.

Beautiful is youth, strange that I'm only feeling this now. I'm going to let myself enjoy it, and maybe at some point I'll stop freaking at the concept of friends - and learn to love more than myself. But for now, I'm satisfied.

Revealing my Family set of New Year Resolutions of 2009 (I actually have 2 sets: another with Syl, WY and Fanny)

STAR Family Resolutions:
- Every 2 months have a family meal outside of home.
- Maintain having Saturday dinners with Aunt Sandra: min 75% attendance rate AND have 2 min. extended family meals.
- Keep Tempers in check toward Family, ESP towards Dad and Mum. At most be grouchy and grumpy NO MORE!
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1. Academic: All Modules (Avg of all components) be minimum Class 1
Should not be hard, really... If I actually gave 3-5 weeks in advance to prepare for all Reports, Essays, Projects. Besides, this is a sell your soul to devil deal. Do or Die.

2. PERSON-ality: To be more responsibly responsive:
Keep Phone Close: Reply msgs within 2 hours of receipt and Answer phone when called.
This one for me and my friends. I know a couple of people who would like me to pick up the phone and reply sms-es, for a change. Part of the initiative to break out of the vicious cycle that alienates me. Step 1: Fixing my phone at the service center.

3. SOCIAL Life: Every 2 weeks, to hang out with Friends once.
I'll work on this. Apparently, it's lacking in my New Year Resolutions's all rounded-ness. I couldn't convince Jas and Jo to change this one to a Yes-day of the week. Because, it will be really dangerous for me to be at Little India saying YES to all requests. Thriving after all, I'm planning a sleep-over or Dinner at NTU next week.

4. Enrichment: Visit Art Exhibitions (min. 2) and Performance of any form (min. 1) - OR in any combination totaling to min. 3 per month.
This ones' a discipline issue. I was supposed to catch Snow White, All the Biennale exhibits, Some school production, etc this hols. NONE DONE. Self-explanatory right?

5. Finances: New Savings of $1750, consisting of Prudential Savings and POSB Savings
I definitely need to work out a finance budget for this one. GOD! For allocating Splurge-able and Un-splurge-ables. And note to self: Call Sina for Pru-savings.

6. Interest: Complete 1 year-long of French Studies for the Exams
This one has been there un-officially for about 7 years, about time to make it official and into action. I don't have many 7 years you know.

7. PERSON-ality: Don’t make empty promises
Keep to my word, when given to ANY third party.
Success Indicator: Broken promises count: less or equals to 5
Uncontested. This is the most difficult resolution in all 10. I figured telling lies in place of truth, is an inherent armor, I still cannot remove YET(it's like the iron man's mask welded painfully onto my skin). But, the least I could do is a conscious effort to make myself responsible for every word I say. TRY jeanie. TRY hard.


8. Tong Tong: Train TT till no longer picks food or items off the floor.
Success Indicator: NO accidents of this nature, which sends him to the vet, AND After June: incidents must be less than 10 times
Read yesterday's entry. Tong Tong ended his 2008 with a BANG. OMG!

9. Health and Lifestyle: Sports and Exercise totally to min 2.5 Hrs per week (NOT to be carried over or averaged)
Well. Could be translated to spending more time with TT, though I really should thrive to wake up early to bring him for his walks. Will be sleeping on that thought.

10. EARTHLING: Be more Eco-friendly
Recycle and Sell/ Give away unwanted/usable items every 2 months, and use when reasonable MY ECO-FRIENDLY shopping bag.
According to many, this one is very question mark. To me however, it's well an identity. Like Vegan, Drug Dealer, ECO-ist, etc. The last one, is definitely the easiest for now. Plus maybe I should include not buying new cosmetics, stationary, creams, etc until the previous one is DEPLETED. ^.-

Over with the new resolutions, my room is still unpacked (with a new battle mess in on the dressing table after today's makeup session). But I did enter my next ENTIRE semester timetable into my iCal and Ipod touch - while I was waiting in vain for 2pm for my treatment appointment, which was cancelled without my knowledge (don't even get me started on this).

To Do List:
1. Input New Year Resolutions in to Ipod touch
2. Fix phone
3. Clear Room
4. Settle Tuition Fee
5. Do up Financial Budgeting
6. Call Sina regarding savings plan.

Ending my 1st '09 entry. Happy New Year to those readings. Remember to seize your life like what I'm trying to do. LIVE IT WELL, LIFE'S NOT A DRESS REHEARSAL.
Sometime soon, jeanie.