The inevitable excuse for procrastinating.

Life is indeed full of tribulations and trials. Just when I try my utmost to proceed forward with determined strides, there would be little things like illness and problems to test my resolve.

Enough of emo introductions, but I do have reason to emo, today. BAD day. It's first day of Sem 2 and I find myself very very very sick. The chocolate hangover, apparently left behind a staying guest - BAD BAD sore throat. Like Jasmine, I was barely sleeping last night with millions of random thoughts rushing through my head.

And of course, to lighten my bag - this morning I remembered to take out the umbrella from my bag. Like Murphy's law decrees, it had to rain with me caught in it. That's it - FEVER.

Plus, mean and horrible I was, with my grouping comments yesterday, I really did try to transfer class. Unsuccessfully, of course, but well there still like a small glimmer of hope. So, I'm trying to suppress that section of gloomy clouds for now. (Or I might just sink into depression again)

But school today was extremely awkward. I felt uneasy, no matter what I do. There was just awkward pause after awkward silence. I guess, I'm now at the junction where I find myself wanting to be sociable in college(because it seems like the right thing to do), but I'm completely unaware and not equipped with the proper physics of how "conversations", "friends", etc work in school. I'm a little tired of filling silence and making conversations that I even find it hard to evoke enough interest in its replies. And I think I look aloof enough for people to NOT want to approach - be it a blessing or a curse.

And I missed the first lesson of the French class I signed up for today. Quite intentionally or unintentionally (Depending on perception), it was 6.00pm and I did not have the fees money with me for the class that started at 6.30pm today. It did occurred to me that I could get cash from dad at orchard and be back on time. But, I sort of gave up. Excuses available: tired, unprepared, sick, blah blah.... It's not exactly a good start to miss the 1st lesson of a new language course. Another bad beginning, I hope if I get well I'll be optimistic enough to believe that bad beginnings can be salvaged.

Well, I'm EMO today.. hard to not be at the alarming rate I'm eating through my tissue box and sneezing my nose off. There's only one class tomorrow, let's hope for the better. and there's always gossip girl to accompany my sick bed. I'll cry real hard if itunes screw up the uploading.

Sometime again, jeanie